After midnight

"I would rather go mad with the truth than remain sane with lies". This is Bertrand Russell's. For long I believed in that saying but recently I am not quite sure that I still hold on to it. Or I should say that I would still believe in it if I found out (or thought) that the truth was not that maddening. Or I would still believe in it if I knew that the truth was unobtainable, and hence I would sound like a great truth seeker if I kept, with a solemn face, reiterating the saying. Or...well, never mind.